Best wishes, cheers, hugs and kisses
spread throughout the room
as family and friends gather
to congratulate the bride and groom
he proudly stands next to her
with stars in his eyes
they looks so happy, so in love
it makes me want to cry
childhood memories surface
blurring my vision
as I watch them both
walking down the aisle
I can't help but feel
sadness overwhelm my soul
seems it was just yesterday
when we were ten years old
playing tag on the merry go round
nobody ever said we'd grow up so fast
but somehow, we wound away the years
making memories to last
you know, its funny
how life takes you by surprise
I never thought this day would come
when I'd have to say goodbye
As the tears swell up deep in my eyes
For once in my lifetime I feel alive
Dwelling on the past, I will not allow
The fears I once had mean nothing to me now
"Let go of the past and think of the future.", they say
They don't know what its like being afraid every single day
Afraid of losing the one that you love the most
The only thing I want right now is for us to be close
She means everything to me, but does she know?
Can she sense the feelings that I just can't show?
I want her to see how much she changed my views
She's just someone I would never want to lose
The hardest thing when loving someone so far away
Is not knowing if they will still love you the very next day
It's not that I doubt it, I just wish she knew
That sometimes i just don't know what to do
I love her with all the love my heart has to provide
So pretty girl, don't worry.. I have nothing to hide
If you were here, you could tell by the tears in my eyes
This love we've been sharing, I hope it never dies
Sometimes I imagine...
Happily sailing through life
you and me walking hand in hand
able to face each problem and strife
experiencing a love that understands
Where I can rest all my anxiety
in your comforting arms
conquer every goal and see victory
and not come across despair or harm
Sometimes I wonder...
If you think about me
and share the same feeling
or am I just a quiet breeze
that comes and goes not affecting
Do you desire the same love
which echoes within my heart
thoughts of me do you just shove
and let my memories depart
Sometimes I just wish...
Where to start?
The seventh grade, your quirky sence of style and your passion for life drew my to you.
Your smile, was so warm and inviting, I could almost feel myself melt into it when you smiled.
Your eyes, the blackest of black, showed your every emotion.
We were almost nothing alike, we didnt have the same friends, sence of style, or love for music.
But I was drawn to you.
Some might have called it a schoolgirls crush, others a joke..but there was feeling there, a feeling that I never felt before.
You told your friends that you liked me, and they turned their noses up
at me, being in a different group was hard, but we wanted it so badly.
December 12th, the school dance, you made me the happiest girl ever, we were finally together.
You were my first kiss, you held a special place in my heart.
A month and a half had passed, we were arguing constantly, and I being the fool that I was, broke it off with you.
A short 2 weeks later, when I was thinking about apoliqizing, I got the call.
"Hes dead" She cried,
"found in his living room"
My world became blurry, my eyes opened up like floodgates.
My knees got weak, and I wept.
Saying goodbye to you was the hardest thing that I have ever done. Your
face so pale and lifeless, your smile that once welcomed all, was now
cold and lifeless. Your eyes, showed no emotion.
Two years later, I think of everyday, and I Still Miss You
I won't dream of your kiss
For you'll hold me so tight,
Your smile I won't miss
Since I'll see you tonight.
I'll give you my pillows,
You'll give me your quilt.
Our legs twine like willows
On sheets made of silk.
The fireplace is snapping,
Frost crackles on glass.
Two lovers are laughing,
A guy and his lass.
So baby let's cuddle.
Ignore Autumn's ring.
Together we'll snuggle,
and of Summer songs sing.
Let Autumn winds blow.
We'll hide under the sheet.
As we whisper so low,
Two lovers, complete.
These are the words I cannot say
But they come from the heart
Despite all the arguments
I've liked you from the start
I like the way your mind works
The way you're so unique
And when I'm in my darkest hour
I long to hear you speak
I like the way you walk
The way you slightly smile
And when your move close to me
You cause my heart to go wild
I like the ways you're different
I like those mysterious eyes
Actually I like everything
Even what's inside
I long for you to hold me
To feel your lips on mine
I know it isn't work yet
We need a little more time
But these are all the things
I guess I cannot yet say
Like how I somehow manage
To think of you all day
Through the walls
And past the mirrors
Stands a girl Who is strong
With her eyes filled with fire
Her soul is weak
But you would never know.
Detailed with passion
A definition of her heart
Words filled with regret
Her dream to write.
Pieces of no meaning
Nothing they could understand
How do I explain
Write of happiness
When all my stories are sad.
So hard to tell
My expression
My speech stuttering
My hands shaky
My heart beating fast
Loosing sleep from stress.
I want to give it up
Let go of the never existed
Step up to the plate
But how do you know me.
When you can not get me
When you don’t know me
When you cant figure me out.
Battling her everyday
Beat her down
Tell the girl in the mirror
To never give up
Reassure her it will be ok
So many burdens.
With makeup running down her face
I tell her
Tomorrow is another day
Tomorrow will be better
Tomorrow I can start over. Like all the other days
Loved & lost only to live & Love another day,
been in Love with You since I was a kid & the sh-t wont go away,
I've tried it all from A-Z, from beginning to end,
from one girl to another in vain, it was all just to pretend,
to trick myself into believing I didn't Love You but I knew it was all a lie,
like I wouldn't give my life to keep You happy in the blink of an eye,
no one knows what You're really worth Love, more than I do,
what we shared were the strongest feelings we've felt, You & I know that thats true,
I've always felt the way I feel, ever since the day we first met,
even though we were young & we both looked a mess,
me, a chubby kid, and You with Your specks,
see, everything I've come to know about Love is built around who You are,
now, as I gaze in to the heavens at night it seems dull with out You, with out its brightest star,
the world lost all sense of worth, beauty lost all appeal,
with out You in my life, nothing appears to be real,
You mean way too much to me, there must be something I can do,
my Love for You wont die but I can die, Jaan, fighting for You.
I really do love you
But I need to let you know
I have not been true
And now I must go
Our trust is now broken
And there’s no going back
A love left unspoken
Pushed me off track
I know that I did wrong
And for that I am sorry
I just couldn’t stay strong
This burden was too heavy
I placed my heart
In someone else’s hands
A man who won’t depart
Next to me he’ll always stand
I can’t deal with this pain
And you know why
No need to further explain
So now it’s good-bye
I will never forget
What we used to be
I hold no regret
And hope you’ll forgive me
You’ve sparked the fire
It’s roaring hot
My loins are burning
I’ll forget you not
You’ve warmed the heart
That was going astray
Hope renewed
Lust has taken way
You have the moves
I can’t wait
For our next encounter
To take place
Hoping it’s sooner
Than the last
And each time
Is better than the past
Yearning to delve into your mind
Opening the soul
The best turn on of it’s kind
Then the fire takes control
It’s roaring hot
Longing again
For you to hit the spot
When I think about what we used to be,
I cry and cry in spite of me.
It just seems crazy that was just last year,
Just last year I barely cried one tear.
Now I'm just hoping maybe tomorrow,
Maybe tomorrow they'll be no more sorrow.
Maybe tomorrow you'll give me a glance,
Maybe tomorrow you'll give me one last chance.
Maybe tomorrow you'll give me a call,
Maybe tomorrow I won't cry at all.
Maybe tomorrow you'll hug me tight,
Maybe tomorrow you'll kiss me good night.
Maybe tomorrow you'll take back my heart,
Maybe you'll give me a brand new start.
I'm living with dreams that won't come true,
For you will never love me as I love you.
I am sorry that I made you cry,
It hurts me so bad that I want to die.
In you I have found a love that is true,
And my heart is filled with love for you.
I am sorry that I have hurt you and you are in pain,
But without you, my life will not be the same.
As I sit here writing this to you,
I am crying, thinking how much I was a fool.
I love you so much and I am sorry that we got into a fight,
I just wish that I could have made it up to you on that night,
I don?t want to break up and I wish we didn?t have this fight,
I just wish that this were so,
I never have loved anyone else as much as I loved you,
I thought that you should know.
I am sorry whatever should I do?
I want to take the time and apologize to you.
You fill my heart with joy, and you make my life complete,
Everytime you come around me my heart skips a beat.
I leave my phone on and I lye by it every night,
Just in case you call me if you feel something is not right.
Every night I think of you as I lye in the dark,
And I close my eyes and I see you holding on to me with your head against my heart.
Before I go and put this poem to an end,
I want to say I am sorry and it will never happen again.
I am sorry we fought
And I love you so much
Please forgive me
I don’t know if you’re pushing me away or pulling me closer
I don’t know where I stand
I don’t know what you want from me
Or if you care at all
Your words lash out and hurt
Then lovingly draw me in
I don’t know what you want from me
Do you want this to end
Don’t turn tables
Or place this on me
Just come out and tell me
What it is you want
I can’t read minds
I don’t know where I stand
Are you pushing me away
Or are you going to finally let me in
Why is it I feel like I do?
Why is it every spare moment i have
is filled with the thought of looking in your eyes?
Only someone who has felt what i feel for you,
Only someone who has spent moments in time with you,
Captivated by who you are, in awe of your spirit as I am,
Only they could possibly know how and why i feel as I do.
I know in my heart no other person has ever had just a fraction
of the love,respect and longing i feel for you,
So i tell you now,
There is no other who could answer such questions,
There is no other who could feel as I do.
You came in to my life when i was lost,
Wandering the web, evenings out,
Searching for something I craved for,
But couldn't quite understand.
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